ALL TIME LOW.

Praying won't do it

Hating won't do it

Drinking won't do it

Fighting won't knock you out

Of my head

Hiding won't hide it

Smiling won't hide it

Like I ain't tried it

Everyone's tried it now

And failed somehow

So when you gonna let me

When you gonna let me out - Out

And if you know

How do you get up from an all time low

I'm in pieces

Seems like peace is

The only thing I'll never know

How do you get up

Get up

‘Cos driving won't do it

Flying won't do it

Denying won't do it

Crying won't drown it out

What you said

When I'm standing on the yellow line

Waiting at the station

Or I'm late for work

A vital presentation

If you call me now girl

Without reservation

I would try to break through

But if you know

How do you get up from an all time low

I'm in pieces

It seems like peace is

The only thing I never know

How do you get up from an all time low

I can't even find a place to start

How do I choose between my head and heart

Till it ceases I never know

How do you get up from an all time low

A low

Can you hear me

A low 

Can't you hear me

And if you know...

PERFECT NIGHTMARE.

Sometimes we fight 

Sometimes I cry 

Why don't I 

Just tell him goodbye 

Sometimes I should 

But sometimes I don't 

Build up the strength to 

Say that it's wrong 

Sometimes I hate 

Sometimes I love 

Sometimes I hurt 

Sometimes I don't 

Sometimes I wait 

For him to change 

But it's okay 

I've disguised the pain 

And I don't ever wanna leave him alone 

They say i'm brainwashed but i'm in love 

With this man 

Yeah 

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it 

I already know I don't deserve it 

But if it's from you I don't mind hurting 

This is my perfect nightmare 

So when will I wake up and scream 

No way (x7) 

But if it's from you I don't mind hurting 

This is my perfect nightmare 

Perfect nightmare 

Sometimes I keep my cool 

Sometimes I let him know 

Sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door 

Sometimes I feel safe 

Sometimes I really don't 

Sometimes I promise that i'm ready to let him go 

But I don't ever wanna leave him alone 

They say i'm brainwashed but i'm in love 

With this man 

Ohh ohhh 

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it 

I already know I don't deserve it 

But if it's from you I don't mind hurting 

This is my perfect nightmare 

So when will I wake up and scream 

No way (x7) 

But if it's from you I don't mind hurting 

This is my perfect nightmare 

Perfect nightmare 

Hoping he's changing 

But i'm scared he's not 

Can't see a way to leave 

Help me open my eyes 

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it 

I already know I don't deserve it 

But if it's from you I don't mind hurting 

This is my perfect nightmare 

Perfect 

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it 

I already know I don't deserve it 

But if it's from you I don't mind hurting 

This is my perfect nightmare 

So when will I wake up and scream 

No way (x7) 

But if it's from you I don't mind hurting 

This is my perfect nightmare 

Perfect nightmare 

No way (x7) 

But if it's from you I don't mind hurting 

This is my perfect nightmare 

Perfect nightmare 

Perfect nightmare

hatiku.

i don`t know why i`m feeling this way nowadays. feeling lonely. so lonely. WEIRD.
am i wrong? or are you? are we done yet? or are we through? sometimes i wish i could read your mind. so hard figuring out what`s on your mind when you send those messages or even talk to me. sometimes it feels hard to leave but it`s harder to stay. apakah ini? *sigh. maybe i`m the only one who feels this way. oh yes you`ve left me speechless. i don`t even know what i should do anymore. you said i`m clumsy and you don`t like that (sorry but you remind me of my father. OH WELL IF YOU CAN`T HANDLE ME AT MY WORST THEN YOU DON`T DESERVE  ME AT MY BEST.  What actually do you want from me? TELL ME. I NEED YOU TO TALK TO ME AND TELL ME. something is wrong. i don`t know. either it`s me or it`s you? i miss YOU.
:`(

EXAM MODE?

BLUE SANDS.

Oh blue sands, can you tell me if I ever be happy?
Oh blue sands, can I stay here forever?
Oh blue sands, can you make them all go away?
Oh blue sands, what are you doing in my hair?

And everything will get better if I stay for a while
And we’ll find another way to be happy one day
And everything will get better if you hold on for a while
And the sea come and sweeps us away from here

Oh blue sands, will I ever get to marry my handsome friend?
Oh blue sands, can you make them understand?

And everything will get better if I stay for a while
And we’ll find another way to be happy one day
And everything will get better if you hold on for a while
And the sea come and sweeps us away from here

Oh blue sands, I don’t want to go up there and pretend
I’m okay

I don’t hate you anymore
I don’t hate you anymore
I don’t hate you anymore
I don’t hate you anymore

I don't hate you anymore for the way you remind me of the person I cannot be
For the things I cannot have
I don’t hate you anymore when I look at you
All I see is the blue waves coming to get me and take me away

I don’t hate you anymore for the way you remind me of the things I cannot have

Oh blue sands will I ever get to be like you.

"Yuna - Blue Sands."

RESPECT?

You don`t respect me? I lagi lah tak respect you. If I`m a bitch so what? Got problem with that? You think you`re better than me huh? I think you`re wrong. Get a life. Nak judge orang lain macam ANDA bagus sangat. I`m doing the very best as his girlfriend now,you know both of us know that i`m doing a great job here. As to my dearest boyfriend PLEASE THINK BEFORE YOU SAY SOMETHING OR EVEN TEXT ME. My hurt is in PAIN. It`s not gonna be easy after this. I am worth it i know I AM. So if you can`t realise that takde gunanya i hold on to this relationship. You better cure my heart boy. I can be as EVIL if i want to. Pleaselah eventhough anda anda lagi tua dari saya jangan ingat saya akan jatuh ok. I know very well what i`m doing. And i`m still holding on because i still sayang you. You better appreciate that. Don`t play with me. Don`t mess with me. THERE I SAID IT.fuhhhhhh

SICK.

okay this is a POST about the three weeks of me being sick. real sick okay. vomitting everyday. that`s not normal okay. i would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who has been taking care of me and showed concern during my so called SICKNESS-PERIOD. And many thanks and love to my dearest mother AZLINA BT NOOR who has been calling and texting everyday. I would not want anyone to feel the pain that i felt for the past three weeks(believe me it was not COOL -BEING SICK) . Everyday vomitting and i could`t even get myself to eat. I had difficulties to sleep at night eventhough i feel so TIRED. Fuhh only God knows how i felt for these past three weeks. It`s not that i didn`t go to any clinic or hospital. I DID BELIEVE ME I DID. Thank God i`m feeling better today and hopefully i`ll get better in time. I miss being me. I`m out of time so this is gonna be a short post about this(MY SICKNESS PERIOD). HUH no need to story so much la kan coz what`s important now is that i stay strong and helthy everyday. Okay terima kasih. :)

Special thanks to :

FADZRIL
MYA 
AFIQAH
FATIN
ARUMI
AIN
KHAI

AND EVERYONE ELSE LAH! I LOVE YOU ALL(i wish you guys could read this!)